Magic words held

Three words I love you, Are the uncomprehendable? When I say them I mean them, I shalln’t ever believe if I ever hear them agan, I was told anon, Our times not now, Of course I love you, Let be just crawl in this cave, Make believe for my family, You took me against myContinue reading “Magic words held”

What a word Time!

Use to look forward to Time with the Heike cousins, As a child looking forward made horrible things vanish, Family. lost Becky Rohr Clark to cancer, Dad(Dr.L.N.Heike) 2012 dementia Mom{ Marian D.Bittenger Heike) murdered by Diana Lee Dudly two codine packs a week) on our diabetic my best pal and mom. Ellen Beth Heike Mathis,Continue reading “What a word Time!”

How do you stand tall?

How do I look forward? How do I look to growing old? Mom and Ellen,Karen and Laurie gone, Taken from me leaving me with tears, Touched so deeply, Others will go, Will they ever care the memory I hold? Enveloped deep within, Hearts of hearts, Recorded, smelled, felt.scared. We hold so much many never seeContinue reading “How do you stand tall?”

Invisable clothes

Wear a lifetime, The sworn and abuse doused upon you by indifference. Dust in the wind, Sands of time, Tears on my pillow, Knife marks on an arm, Then your alone, Not your fault, Not her fault, Still a door shuts in your heart, I’ll never smile again when not reading a book, Returnings notContinue reading “Invisable clothes”

Escape mechanisms

Love naps, need naps, Try to close down, Close off, migrate to rest, Sounds simple, Isn’t, We make plans, I just called her, No answer, She hates when I text then go about my business, Nap, Sure wish I had one, Did just put three cans of lentl soup in crock pot, Soup heals noContinue reading “Escape mechanisms”

The little mother

Ellen Beth Heike second youngest Heike cousin, Games were different with baby Ellen, Charles(Cub) Heike made Ellen only one not allowed to be tossed in lake, Only Ellen could push in Everyone, When we fished Ellen and Connie Ulmer were doctors, We had three small docks, Word would be screamed ‘Oh Doctor your needed!’ SwiftContinue reading “The little mother”

Like a scale

Life is weighed, Losses and gains tallied, Lost Ellen Beth Heike Mathis my blood sister died from guilt. Her sons think alcohol I know it was pain and torment from our narcississitic half sister. Ellen wanted to help mom and me Diana said no.Ellen hid in beer. Alcoholism ugly way to die. People assume peopleContinue reading “Like a scale”

Robbie

Oldest son of a narcississ, Fifty-three, My oldest nephew, Not worked since March, His mom enherited sixty grand Our mom died in June twenty twenty His wife Julie says Robert’s mom is of no help, August 2014, Diana had Rob call my now gone baby sister, Four calls Rob made Verbal Abuse to force EllenContinue reading “Robbie”

Set off for Prairie du Chien

One of my all time favorite Wisconsin towns Near Monona in Allamakee County The park on edge of town Pulled over to pee, This crappy Covid has removed porta potties, So I sat, So I teared up, Had no dried eyes, Missing ones sister and they are alive less painfull, The bond is intact, WhenContinue reading “Set off for Prairie du Chien”