How do good people survive?

My shed, First I loaned it to a friend, I was told her husband woukd pay me $50/ month, I got nothing, Then the land lord brought them their own shed, Then my gal had stuff in it, Then the gal and most of her stuff went south, Then the straight christian neighbor had no

Too much!

One cat who I use to love pushes me beyond angry, This is not good for me, Not good for her, So I’m going back before my half sister murdered mom, Forced my younger sister to drink herself to death, Back when family gathering were for first time in my life fun, Dad was in

Bias , I feel like crying,

False words used to tint the truth, Spoken freely, Outshined I thought as a neighbor, Loaned my new apartment size fridge, Hot plate, Food, Two totes, She freely without durest borrowed from the non Christian gay , Told how she was a used until she fled her home at twelve, Told me god wants all

Lost calm

Lost family, Lost good name, Lied onto Elder Abuse by something vile, Lost family, Two twenty crushed my, Gentle, empath, heart, Seas no longer restful, Little things arupt within me, Where never before volatile, Want, Dream, Need, Crush family abusers windpipe between my hands, Want the monster , Want the murder of my mom and

Trauma

Begets fear, Bullying, Lies beget believers, Innocent gets you crushed, Lonliness, Being fearful even from love, Feelings, Cornered, Trapped, All from Not bombs bursting in air! Shell shock mine from narcississ half sister who mom told seventy times a day ‘ No I”m not leaving my home,my family & friends or my cat!’ Mom and

Which,

Not wish, Not Witch, Which, Is worse chilling, No heat, No windows open, Buying old renovated trailer, Assuming since kitchen floor was replaced, New counter tops in kitchen and both bathrooms, New sinks and faucets, Not replaced furnace or water heater, Both old from the nineteen nineties, Bout to go fo drive to Independence,Iowa, Partial

Take flight

Abuse, Bullying, Fear, Trauma, Something, Nothing, Fear, …. .Fear, Fear, A kitten to close to my head, Anything climbing or on me, Nothing, Nothing, Nothing, Narcississitic lies, About my character, Lies of my abusing someone I love, Loosing all those I loved, At gumpoint of lies, Empty, Vaccumous,void, Abyss, Painful as if a shot were

Poor me,

A friend calls, Always in pain, Needs validation, The times I suffer, Private thing, Need no pas on head, I hurt, I write, Pain oozes from the wounds if family stripped from me by a narcississ half sisters lies, I think all narcississ should be hunted, Brutally murdered, Have they bodies hung like in times

Just wondering!

Why do WordPress send us notification when we write something? I was there at whatever’s creation! Why does messenger send us what we said in our messenger? It makes no sense, Are we in the Matrix? Surrounded by Androids? I hate it as must as anything behind me, My older half sister made me shell

Only way to fight Narcississ bullies who have harmed you is write all the horrors you suffered through vie their existance!