My shed, First I loaned it to a friend, I was told her husband woukd pay me $50/ month, I got nothing, Then the land lord brought them their own shed, Then my gal had stuff in it, Then the gal and most of her stuff went south, Then the straight christian neighbor had noContinue reading “How do good people survive?”
Begets fear, Bullying, Lies beget believers, Innocent gets you crushed, Lonliness, Being fearful even from love, Feelings, Cornered, Trapped, All from Not bombs bursting in air! Shell shock mine from narcississ half sister who mom told seventy times a day ‘ No I”m not leaving my home,my family & friends or my cat!’ Mom andContinue reading “Trauma”
Concept beyond truth, Ellen Beth Heike Mathis lost at fifty-nine, October 29th,twenty-Twenty one, I see her smile in woman walking my way, I miss her so, Thought she to hide, Drink of chose Miller light, Ellen rocked, I foolishly thought we were friends, Thought she knew how proud I was of her, One day inContinue reading “Sister’s lost leaves irreplaceable hole,”
Abuse, Bullying, Fear, Trauma, Something, Nothing, Fear, …. .Fear, Fear, A kitten to close to my head, Anything climbing or on me, Nothing, Nothing, Nothing, Narcississitic lies, About my character, Lies of my abusing someone I love, Loosing all those I loved, At gumpoint of lies, Empty, Vaccumous,void, Abyss, Painful as if a shot wereContinue reading “Take flight”
Same human and other humans, Anima and thse they believe lesser to them, Like Marslow Hierarchy, Bullies full fill their desires or … Need, Domination, Narcississ ace that as children, Babies do that too, Survive piush others out of the way, Children, Small cubs, Parents , grown ups place is to teach, New Alfa taughtContinue reading “Animal bullies”
Mom dies after five years pain packs and abuse at hands of a narcississ older sister. Today I get word Ellen Beth Heike Mathis found Dead in bed Holloween morning. Real or another Diana narcississ lie! This lie will be her last!
Sailing bye Threw space and time Up threw the ozone Rebounding to.earth No Clarence vell rang Still Marian got her figurative wings She briefly ponders Blue box drifting bye One door She stops Knocks Yells ‘You Who!’ Figures no one home Unlike Iowa’s Human Services September third twenty twelve flies away Floats a bit toContinue reading “On Gossamer Wings”
Debember to May To Arizonia Nana flew Winton mom’s younger brother lived Like a bird Nana went Nineteen seventy mom,Ellen and I To Arizona for Easter we three Dad stays home Nana only bought three tickets Queen be Nana was I was twelve I knew lay of land Dad drank see Mom’s family imaged themselfContinue reading “Arizona”