Never had a

Never had a sister who thought I was cooler them a friend, Never had a sister who thought spending time with me mattered, Never had a sister who told others ‘she’s my sister or called across a store ‘Sis!’ Made me proud she included time with me was special!’ Wanted to share with what I

Implies

A gift, Shows care, Thought, Demands a response, Today I gave two plates bought from Bradford Exchange years ago for mom, After skank(my half sister the narcissist) even before that when I had no money for gifts I gave bits of me The plates fawns given to Jean Huffey who her family suggested ninety was

Chapter 5, Jolly Holly

Coldest Christmas Eve in my history, Colder then after my half sister torched our laundry room December third twenty fourteen after removing all but one smoke alarm battery, Christmas early evening I spent in dad’s red Dodge pickup truck with my four kitties that survived Diana’s fire in our electric drier, Electric driers cause two

Chapter 3,Christmas

Marian D.(Bittenger)Heike my mom made every holiday special. Mom was a class act. Mom use to bother dad about a red head he dated once and how she was a lesbian. Mom and dad met on a blind date in Spencer at a bar. Mom was not a drinker. Mom’s first husband my half sisters

Oldest and youngest

Both disappointments, Mother,mom never lied or did harm, Diana a bully narcississ, Ellen mother worried all through high school, Upon Ellen’s seventeenth summer, Ellen came home at two thirty, Mom’smother was visiting, Nana the woman who sucked at rearing Diana to eight years old, Mom loved to sing, Sang Sweet Adeline Spencer,Iowa, Church, Mom sang

Once had a sister

Once thought her the best, Till I was nine, She made mom while I’m was at school upon threat of never seeing her grandson again give away my dog. Funny how much still at on the eve nearly of my sixty-fourth birthday that pain is still fresh, Acid still rises filling my heart and mouth

Sad

A world without, My mom lite up rooms, Corners came to life, My baby sister thought friends were better then a Gay sister with heart, Some would say that was just how my little sister Ellen was, Maybe in her youth, The person I knew mostly was just my sister, She had some swell dogs,

Grey skies are gonna clear up!

Nineteen thirties song, Still playing within, An old roll of music, My uncle Norman’s player pianos, My baby sister died, Last year, Yesterday, The pain in my heart, Equally matched by my heart, Ellen walked on the earth, Sang karaoke no I can’t spell it, Hot tears burn my eye ball holes, .. My heart

Sister

Death life vanished, Flame snuffed out, Ellen loved candles flickering, Five years stollen from me, Time we missed,holidays, Lies consume more the flames, October never good for me, Sister Missed you so very much Ellen, The asswipe han service of Iowa were told in the lies of my older half sister Ellen was afraid of

Lonesome that’s me

Are we suppose to out live our baby sister? I missed Ellen Beth five years before my half sister crushed her, Ellen died shortly after Diana’s visit, October the twenty-ninth,twenty twenty, Four months twenty- three days after my mom my friend had a massive stroke due to codeine posining. Codine packs in Texas are not