Never had a

Never had a sister who thought I was cooler them a friend, Never had a sister who thought spending time with me mattered, Never had a sister who told others ‘she’s my sister or called across a store ‘Sis!’ Made me proud she included time with me was special!’ Wanted to share with what I

Implies

A gift, Shows care, Thought, Demands a response, Today I gave two plates bought from Bradford Exchange years ago for mom, After skank(my half sister the narcissist) even before that when I had no money for gifts I gave bits of me The plates fawns given to Jean Huffey who her family suggested ninety was

English language

Language only gets complicated when delve into, Body language or the body of a language is more involved, Language is like me with my PTSD, and a TBI, First thing I do in the morning is write, My Sophie cat wants loving, I want her to just sit, I can’t take being climbed on, Or

Chapter 3,Christmas

Marian D.(Bittenger)Heike my mom made every holiday special. Mom was a class act. Mom use to bother dad about a red head he dated once and how she was a lesbian. Mom and dad met on a blind date in Spencer at a bar. Mom was not a drinker. Mom’s first husband my half sisters

Oldest and youngest

Both disappointments, Mother,mom never lied or did harm, Diana a bully narcississ, Ellen mother worried all through high school, Upon Ellen’s seventeenth summer, Ellen came home at two thirty, Mom’smother was visiting, Nana the woman who sucked at rearing Diana to eight years old, Mom loved to sing, Sang Sweet Adeline Spencer,Iowa, Church, Mom sang

Once had a sister

Once thought her the best, Till I was nine, She made mom while I’m was at school upon threat of never seeing her grandson again give away my dog. Funny how much still at on the eve nearly of my sixty-fourth birthday that pain is still fresh, Acid still rises filling my heart and mouth

Grey skies are gonna clear up!

Nineteen thirties song, Still playing within, An old roll of music, My uncle Norman’s player pianos, My baby sister died, Last year, Yesterday, The pain in my heart, Equally matched by my heart, Ellen walked on the earth, Sang karaoke no I can’t spell it, Hot tears burn my eye ball holes, .. My heart

Sister

Death life vanished, Flame snuffed out, Ellen loved candles flickering, Five years stollen from me, Time we missed,holidays, Lies consume more the flames, October never good for me, Sister Missed you so very much Ellen, The asswipe han service of Iowa were told in the lies of my older half sister Ellen was afraid of

Lonesome that’s me

Are we suppose to out live our baby sister? I missed Ellen Beth five years before my half sister crushed her, Ellen died shortly after Diana’s visit, October the twenty-ninth,twenty twenty, Four months twenty- three days after my mom my friend had a massive stroke due to codeine posining. Codine packs in Texas are not

Diana Lee Dudley,

Plan failed, Killed mom, Killed Ellen, Mom kept me in the will, My heirs Dan Eric Mathis,Waukon, Craig Ryan Mathis and, Mela Mathis my heirs and the Heike’s own Grampa Paul John Heike’s Cub Lake, Dad(Doc L.N.Heike and Ellen Beth Heike Mathis) are there, I’ll be there, Mom’s spirits there and where ever there are