Never had a

Never had a sister who thought I was cooler them a friend, Never had a sister who thought spending time with me mattered, Never had a sister who told others ‘she’s my sister or called across a store ‘Sis!’ Made me proud she included time with me was special!’ Wanted to share with what I

Chapter 5, Jolly Holly

Coldest Christmas Eve in my history, Colder then after my half sister torched our laundry room December third twenty fourteen after removing all but one smoke alarm battery, Christmas early evening I spent in dad’s red Dodge pickup truck with my four kitties that survived Diana’s fire in our electric drier, Electric driers cause two

Oldest and youngest

Both disappointments, Mother,mom never lied or did harm, Diana a bully narcississ, Ellen mother worried all through high school, Upon Ellen’s seventeenth summer, Ellen came home at two thirty, Mom’smother was visiting, Nana the woman who sucked at rearing Diana to eight years old, Mom loved to sing, Sang Sweet Adeline Spencer,Iowa, Church, Mom sang

Once had a sister

Once thought her the best, Till I was nine, She made mom while I’m was at school upon threat of never seeing her grandson again give away my dog. Funny how much still at on the eve nearly of my sixty-fourth birthday that pain is still fresh, Acid still rises filling my heart and mouth

Grey skies are gonna clear up!

Nineteen thirties song, Still playing within, An old roll of music, My uncle Norman’s player pianos, My baby sister died, Last year, Yesterday, The pain in my heart, Equally matched by my heart, Ellen walked on the earth, Sang karaoke no I can’t spell it, Hot tears burn my eye ball holes, .. My heart

Sister

Death life vanished, Flame snuffed out, Ellen loved candles flickering, Five years stollen from me, Time we missed,holidays, Lies consume more the flames, October never good for me, Sister Missed you so very much Ellen, The asswipe han service of Iowa were told in the lies of my older half sister Ellen was afraid of

Lonesome that’s me

Are we suppose to out live our baby sister? I missed Ellen Beth five years before my half sister crushed her, Ellen died shortly after Diana’s visit, October the twenty-ninth,twenty twenty, Four months twenty- three days after my mom my friend had a massive stroke due to codeine posining. Codine packs in Texas are not

Diana Lee Dudley,

Plan failed, Killed mom, Killed Ellen, Mom kept me in the will, My heirs Dan Eric Mathis,Waukon, Craig Ryan Mathis and, Mela Mathis my heirs and the Heike’s own Grampa Paul John Heike’s Cub Lake, Dad(Doc L.N.Heike and Ellen Beth Heike Mathis) are there, I’ll be there, Mom’s spirits there and where ever there are

Dancing Queen

A dear friend of mine, When dancers dance toes tap, Studied in college, Fell in love, One guy, Three children, Lots of love, Toes still tap, She had started dancing again, Paul the one fellow stilled her dancing heart was taken too soon, Toes still tap, Last year she still danced, In a group, Met

Trauma

We all got it, It’s different, It’s difficult, At sixty- three when those you loved are beyond your grasp, That’s in my disfunctional family we had a Narcissists, Those I love were taken completely from my view lies, Took the Narcissists two and a half years of harassment and verbal attacks and a set fire