Never had a

Never had a sister who thought I was cooler them a friend, Never had a sister who thought spending time with me mattered, Never had a sister who told others ‘she’s my sister or called across a store ‘Sis!’ Made me proud she included time with me was special!’ Wanted to share with what I

Do you a jibber Jabber?

Did you come out late in life? Did you date the wrong sex to please those near and dear to you? Was that toxic to you? People will never get born Gay it wasn’t a choice like what Cologne you wanted to wear to fit in! Have you always tried to please those you loved?

Magazines!

I was told a sad story yesterday, It was bout a lady who had been in the military, As the military she was put in a mental ward, She met another warrior there and they had an affair, Is ranked was higher than hers, So they were court Marshall. On sure that they wanted to

Chapter 1, Harmed more

My narcissistic half sister harmed me more and getting hit by a car. She cut my heart out she stole my family and she ruined my good name. A****** say let It go forget about it it was a long ago. It took her from 2:10 to 2:14 December 3rd to force our mother from

Scars cut through

No one knows the venom narcississ inject, Lies that steal not only your good name, Lies allow you to see nothing but cowards! Its easier to follow a narcississ then stand up to them, That cowardice took my baby sister’s life, Being helpless and trapped took my mom’s life too, Are there no hero’s? I

Putting away

How do you put family as if in a bag, Out of site, Not call, Not text, Not email, Treat as if dead, All they have are lies told by a narcissist , I the one forgotten, I the one like Elf on the shelf, I miss them, I miss hugs, Miss family, Miss caring,

My mom

Mom,Marian D.Heike, Born November forth nineteen twenty-seven Spencer Iowa at home, To Clarence Ward Bittenger of Webb,Iowa and Lottie Henrietta Starky four grade school teacher,middle child. Went to school in Spencer,Iowa, Married briefly to a bully,a wife beater,mothered a daughter,divorced Lee H after two year of being brutally beaten in California,Diana Lee was a year

Lost calm

Lost family, Lost good name, Lied onto Elder Abuse by something vile, Lost family, Two twenty crushed my, Gentle, empath, heart, Seas no longer restful, Little things arupt within me, Where never before volatile, Want, Dream, Need, Crush family abusers windpipe between my hands, Want the monster , Want the murder of my mom and

Grey skies are gonna clear up!

Nineteen thirties song, Still playing within, An old roll of music, My uncle Norman’s player pianos, My baby sister died, Last year, Yesterday, The pain in my heart, Equally matched by my heart, Ellen walked on the earth, Sang karaoke no I can’t spell it, Hot tears burn my eye ball holes, .. My heart

Sister’s lost leaves irreplaceable hole,

Concept beyond truth, Ellen Beth Heike Mathis lost at fifty-nine, October 29th,twenty-Twenty one, I see her smile in woman walking my way, I miss her so, Thought she to hide, Drink of chose Miller light, Ellen rocked, I foolishly thought we were friends, Thought she knew how proud I was of her, One day in