Escape from a Narcississ

Only done once, Only done by death, They never have a clue, Ex-husbands jumped like rats from Diana Lee, She as a ship sunk! Mother Marian D. Heike trapped by filthy lies, Diana Lee lied me onto Elder Abuse, Lying to crappy human services Federal offense, She did it twice, Same lies, I didn’t knowContinue reading “Escape from a Narcississ”

Trauma

We all got it, It’s different, It’s difficult, At sixty- three when those you loved are beyond your grasp, That’s in my disfunctional family we had a Narcissists, Those I love were taken completely from my view lies, Took the Narcissists two and a half years of harassment and verbal attacks and a set fireContinue reading “Trauma”

How far is love from hate?

Is it quanative or Qualitive! Can an equation be make of known quotions? Is it pollable? Whats the variance? Some love to hate, Family members Gay, They lie to their children about their gay sister. They attempt murder! There the freaks. Statistics would see its a.bell shaped curve. https://www.frontiersin.org/articles/10.3389/fpsyg.2017.01940/full https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S245231511630159X https://www.independent.co.uk/news/science/scientists-prove-it-really-is-a-thin-line-between-love-and-hate-976901.html?amp https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5725944/

April 11th, will always play upon my heart

Ellen B. Heike Mathis, Fifty-nine, October twenty-nine dead, Pain tetched through her heart, Bullied and told falsely accusing a blood sister of Elder Abuse ‘Didn’t matter,Ellen’s pain enveloped her existence. Slowly died intoxicated, My baby sister, Mother, Grand mother, Gone, Born sixty years today, My love started her journey south today, My heart drives shotContinue reading “April 11th, will always play upon my heart”

Peoples garbage

Don’t be bringing who others were to a relationship We are not responsible for how others treated you! I never hurt others yet bare their scars, Don’t compare me to other women who hurt you, Don’t find fault if I bring you an Easter gift three days early and assume its a prank because itsContinue reading “Peoples garbage”

Witness

A dear one believe it is foolish to see out a priest, Just as soon talk to a Rabbi, I feel bewidered, lost, Like R2D2 I have thoughts and questions, No one to share them to, I’m not seeking a forgiveness just an ear, An ear of someone who will hear the pain I sufferContinue reading “Witness”

Hated words!

Ugly words! Sticky words, Words that elevate you, Words that humiliate you, Knowing goes hand in hand with feeling, ‘Something stinks, and I’m not cleaning that up!’ Your butt is wet! { if my butt is wet or not is not others place to announce what you know!} Did you do ‘that?’ That was AwesomelyContinue reading “Hated words!”

Invisable clothes

Wear a lifetime, The sworn and abuse doused upon you by indifference. Dust in the wind, Sands of time, Tears on my pillow, Knife marks on an arm, Then your alone, Not your fault, Not her fault, Still a door shuts in your heart, I’ll never smile again when not reading a book, Returnings notContinue reading “Invisable clothes”

Sky as blue as cornflowers

Silly but true, The husk silk found on corn snot blue, The cornflower delicate and true, Blooms near the ground and blue, Sure sign winter’s gone, Robin’s return, Calf’s baying for their ma’s, Bull frogs are jumping, somewhere fish are biting, In my minds eye sit I, Bucket of thick nighcrawlers sliming the dirt, AContinue reading “Sky as blue as cornflowers”

How lucky, does luck pay a part.

Today I was told the horrors, Grandfathers who sex starved appetites got them off, Holding baby grand daughters, How very lucky I was, My grandfathers both German, Both decent men, Mom’s dad Clarence Ward Bittenger, Dad’s dad Paul Jon Andrew Heike, Is luck a blessing, I think so, In Georgia even when the abuse wasContinue reading “How lucky, does luck pay a part.”