Can it possibly be?

I died twice eight years and ten days ago, Mom’s(Marian D. Bittenger Heike,born November 3th,1927,to Clarence Ward Bittenger and Lottie Henrietta Starkey Bittenger,massive stroke from two Codine packs placed on our diabetic mom a week) been gone two and a half years ago, Ellen(Ellen Beth Heike Mathis,born April 11th,1961,we almost lost Ellen to Whopping cough

Hit forty eight

Unsure if that’s that, Let me peek, How funny its to peek at fifty-one, No WIFI still weather app says so, Sure glad my chosen sister got us both more fly strips that day in Amish country, Flies are still unfortunately alive and kicking, Seems odd to me four miles in country I get a

Too much!

One cat who I use to love pushes me beyond angry, This is not good for me, Not good for her, So I’m going back before my half sister murdered mom, Forced my younger sister to drink herself to death, Back when family gathering were for first time in my life fun, Dad was in

Beloved

Photos loved ones absent, FaceBook accounts hacked, Irreplaceable memories, Gone loved ones, Stolen photo fragments, A friend, A friend lost photos of her dad, I lost last ones taken of mom and baby sister, Gone, Raped from us, Now the thief slanders us, Using our dead beloved relatives, Steps shall be taken to deal with

It’s not better parents abuse or that of a stranger.

R U the kid grown, Parents yours dumped on? In my world that was the norm, Age yours is not a quotion, Equivalent with a number, My dad always surprised I tried, My dad loved my failure, Favorite expression if you’d only asked I would have told you will fail’, Time saving dad, Pain caring

Needs,

Life”s not your play ground, Other life’s significant role, Universal grounding, Consideration of others, Self center believe you are their pawn, Your time’s theirs, This is not a Narcissist, This is an abused child in all forms, Cecila is still battling a sex abuser for dad and grand dad, Life time of trauma, I’d waste

Trauma

We all got it, It’s different, It’s difficult, At sixty- three when those you loved are beyond your grasp, That’s in my disfunctional family we had a Narcissists, Those I love were taken completely from my view lies, Took the Narcissists two and a half years of harassment and verbal attacks and a set fire

Chapter 1 – 5,Goodnight John-boy by Earl Hamner & Ralph Giffin

Prelude- https://youtu.be/tlx2yyZ157U Chapter 1, https://youtu.be/SwwpN-E4gSY Chapter 2a, https://youtu.be/drhwuid1Z9A Chapter 2b, https://youtu.be/T1MYel_HHP8 Chapter 3, https://youtu.be/GGcaFXZnw3U Chapter 4a, https://youtu.be/Xd2rknpALgI Chapter 4b, https://youtu.be/Uz43U776IRU Chapter 4c, https://youtu.be/qOQLGdh5Mtw Chapter 5, https://youtu.be/yJg9BXPZ-Dc

Chapter 8-End book,What’s a Ghoul to do? Victoria Laurie

Chapter 8a, https://youtu.be/rtZufE4oZfI Chapter 8b, https://youtu.be/ZI9UyL6_14U Chapter 8c, https://youtu.be/4GGMfpdEMSk Chapter 9, https://youtu.be/jouoOM0WgxE Chapter 10a, https://youtu.be/eU3D0z5PdaI Chapter 10b, https://youtu.be/2yVf2yl5Wbw Chapter 10c, https://youtu.be/WZkuCwd8LPg Chapter 10d, https://youtu.be/jraIolR61Ks Chapter 10e, https://youtu.be/lJdoW8szIkM Chapter 10f, https://youtu.be/m5UjkrmbIeg Chapter 11a, https://youtu.be/Q-QH-iPISic Chapter 11b, https://youtu.be/GX_kJueIq9I Chapter 11c, https://youtu.be/CLKLKzsdHQg Chapter 12a, https://youtu.be/qplVGVGn1OU Chapter 12b, https://youtu.be/De8LiBRCDMc Chapter 13a, https://youtu.be/Dej-VMGU2A4 Chapter 13b, https://youtu.be/az7q0jxkfGg Chapter 13c, https://youtu.be/6zi3DlBHv_s Chapter

Pleurisy

Feels like heart attack, Sits in front of heart, All this time thinking its bronchitis, Unlike that no coughing, Breathing good, Rugby match victim Now feel like kicked, The pain now side of my lower left lumbar by left kidney, Yeah!.. So about 730 shall call unknown clinic, Also chiropractor, not a fan of pain,