Can it possibly be?

I died twice eight years and ten days ago, Mom’s(Marian D. Bittenger Heike,born November 3th,1927,to Clarence Ward Bittenger and Lottie Henrietta Starkey Bittenger,massive stroke from two Codine packs placed on our diabetic mom a week) been gone two and a half years ago, Ellen(Ellen Beth Heike Mathis,born April 11th,1961,we almost lost Ellen to Whopping cough

Another fifty mph wind

When wind is so strong your vehicle sounds like a thin bit of metal, But you still need antifreeze and to mail books to Alaska, My cousin John Rohr & wife own the bakery there, Probably not seen John since his sister Rebekah’s death in the eighty’s, When you say a number its like that

Hit forty eight

Unsure if that’s that, Let me peek, How funny its to peek at fifty-one, No WIFI still weather app says so, Sure glad my chosen sister got us both more fly strips that day in Amish country, Flies are still unfortunately alive and kicking, Seems odd to me four miles in country I get a

Nine Twenty-nine am

Finally reached thirty-two again, November twenty-third, Day before sounds from the past meant memories made, Smells and aroma’s, The table set, Smell of turkey and ham in the oven, Potatoes simmering white and candied, Black olives,green and beet pickles in fancy dishes, Champaign bottles to be opened, Dad bossing because though he spent no time

Walk I shall always recall

Strolling to Bear Lake through our woods, In fall Lee Ann removing my slivers, Uncle Norm made the best sling shots, Always used saved inner tubes that no longer floated, The tree house built by cousins and one short time brother in law, John Cook,Robbie and Julie’s dad, How the meadow changed from huge with

Putting away

How do you put family as if in a bag, Out of site, Not call, Not text, Not email, Treat as if dead, All they have are lies told by a narcissist , I the one forgotten, I the one like Elf on the shelf, I miss them, I miss hugs, Miss family, Miss caring,

Eighteen years in the ER

Catholic hospital,Waterloo,IA, Can’t give out drugs to stop , Err abstain from pregnancy , Can placed disabled hard working nurse who worked eighteen years in ER on temporary disability, Nurse Atta we will call her, Worked sixteen hour days, Nurses use to stay in rooms not used so short on staff, Can’t now,now they stay

Oldest and youngest

Both disappointments, Mother,mom never lied or did harm, Diana a bully narcississ, Ellen mother worried all through high school, Upon Ellen’s seventeenth summer, Ellen came home at two thirty, Mom’smother was visiting, Nana the woman who sucked at rearing Diana to eight years old, Mom loved to sing, Sang Sweet Adeline Spencer,Iowa, Church, Mom sang

Cousins

Loved, Cherrished, Never met, Cousins Heike,Mory, Dennis, Blom,Faux,Rohr, Kleeman,Crew,Bittenger,Orb, Hi this is Val, Lee’s eldest, If you live please contact me, Blessings be with you all.

Too much!

One cat who I use to love pushes me beyond angry, This is not good for me, Not good for her, So I’m going back before my half sister murdered mom, Forced my younger sister to drink herself to death, Back when family gathering were for first time in my life fun, Dad was in