A concept or a want

Attached to feeling Want, desire Fullfillment Missing, longing Home Those there know you not! You were young longings filled you Who beside you knew you? Grow up you did Innerstrength still emotions yours Others changed too People still attached pass to you If like , me bullied scapegoated If others family concept remained same OthersContinue reading “A concept or a want”

Top of the world

Not heard my mom giggle Not heard her say hi Val Not heard Marian D Heike laugh Tell a joke ‘I took a neck from some beer bottle, And from a horse I took some hair, I took some hair And I put them all together With some wire and some glue And I gotContinue reading “Top of the world”

Father more then son

WWII young Oklahomian Julian Jasper Lovitt one of large family Joined the Navy Trained Great Lakes Loved to roller skate Served aboard Saled home met my aunt Skated hand in hand Vietnam came along Son, middle looked just like Dear Old dad Wayne Lovitt trained Sales away Two weeks his ship was missing We allContinue reading “Father more then son”

She danced

Through her youth Loved to twirlf Was good at it then she married a jealous man Told my best friend Told best women I ever knew biggest heart Empathic like her dear old Mom ‘Don’t dance your horrid!’ Instead of dancing with her He used his angry words Hurt her pride Crushed her heart 1956Continue reading “She danced”

Honesty and my mom

A person’s honor use to be attached to our name like Peter Pan’s shadow. Our word was honor bound like a invisible contract. With false words Marian Heike’s honor was erased. My older half sister told in writting which according to Fran Phillips from Liverpool England was a legal binding document placed in the handsContinue reading “Honesty and my mom”

She loved here

Born here 1927 Iowan until here word ment NOTHING An older daughter pursured her Over and over she said No Narcississ hear nothing Crime it was Proof was there To easy to find Easier to dirty innocent gay sister Torch a laundry room off the street Never harmed a soul She loved horses Her homeContinue reading “She loved here”

Lonliness is hard work

People say they love being alone People lie or really necer been abandoned! To loose ones whole family and innocent of lies Causes me to ponder Gospels,five men unknown to a rabbi named Jesus gain his earthly kingdom because they excelled at lying in his name? I miss and only have scraps of memories JustContinue reading “Lonliness is hard work”

Questions are and are not

Throughout life couriousty has burned Wondering this and that A professor once said theres not a stupid question just people to afraid to ask! Not sure still at sixty two nearly if true Fear stops people through out life Fearful to appologize Admit wrong doing Afraid to request better pay Guilt of not standing byContinue reading “Questions are and are not”

How does an entire family forget?

I remember all the time together All the heart ache Birthday Family gathering What its like no money to sue for slander How those that claim christianity took who I was, distorted it Where those people who knew me No one stood by me Or up for me Six years this December Heike’s,Dudleys and Mathis’sContinue reading “How does an entire family forget?”