When a friend doesn’t get it,
It wasn’t an afternoon lark!
Gave me PTSD!
It was being helpless,
Watching a narcississ half sister steal my good name,
Corrupt me crippling more then being struck by Linn Morrow’s car,
Its hard to circle wagons when attacked by lies of a family member do that half sister can force mom from our home to hers to live off,
All around who didn’t and Never would know diana lee dudley of granbury texas saw what a good daughter she was after the fire she set in our electric drier,
I wrote about it since she started her irrational attack our the eighty-four year old mom,
Gaslighting calling seventy-times a week,
I paid the bills,
I experienced mom in years after every fucking call,
Mom and I were beat up by her,
I still have nightmares of that red head nurse after I got out pf Intensive care and went to see mom in Waukon,Iowa,
diana had had four days to cripple me,
Telling her lies that i beat mom like dad did,
My dad beat me he never harmed mom,
Dad’s words were weapons,
He had nearly been beaten to death at fourteen when he and his friends drank up granddad’s booze,
I was watched like a hawk,
I searched for a.place to stay and saved stuff from the house during the day,while diana sewed her seeds,
diana told them I refused to fed mom and left her for hours without a phone,
A redheaded male nurse told me he should have let me die,
Told iowa brain dead human services that mom was an invalid and a cripple,
Mom Never was a cripple,
Mom always did the bills for the office and house,
Mom was a smart cookie,
Mom became an invalid after diana’s set fire,
I died twice at her hands,
Mom went from talking for herself to being controlled,
In the hospital mom went from saying Val and I or Ellen and I to “We,’
We is a controll word.
We stops individuality,
Diana’s control of mom murdered Ellen off too.
I’m like Vietnam,
The reason the Romans who started circling the wagons did it was for protection,
Only an ass doesn’t get the level of immortal damage narcississ do to their victims,
I hear my oldest cat crying in the kitchen,Mr.Black is being attacked by Sadie,
Sadies in heat and Black is fixed,
I miss holding dan or Craig’s children,
I miss the family cabin and its smells,
I miss belonging most,
Coming out was fine,
But just because I’m gay doesn’t mean I belong,
I’m a fish out of water,
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