When things sound and feel incorrect they are.I was once told that hitting someone would make them orgassum faster.I have never struck anyone except once my three year old nephew Craig across his ass. It was during the time of unrest at my kid sister’s home Craig her youngest picked up the term ‘Fucker from his father’s speech.
The fucker term I never heard again from my sweet youngest nephews mouth. How could hitting someone you thought you loved have anything to do with making love?
No one during the making love should ever tell you they need to be assaulted that just makes me feel bad about their past. No straight person has the right to dictate to another writer who is not straight what they believe is or is not the truth. Nor do I care to view their preference.
I have changed this piece because some straight woman believed I was condoning the act of violance.Violance is not sexual it is always violance. Just like what the narcississ in my family continues to do to me and my family is always wrong full of emotional violance.
Sex and violance never mated although I feel many believe that they the bullies of the world can take the beauty of love and discolor its passion. Passion as simple as holding a hand or cuddling is love perfect. Created perfect be you straight or queer.
There are no place for bullies in love or passion.
Never having had a lover who wanted to give pleasure as much as simply take it I thought she was a fool but now I am glad that I found her to be of little value. Why is it those we think we love find it easier to lie about our worth then find it so easy to forget that we are innocent of the lies they tell their family member.
Today I learned nineteen miles away my sister Ellen Beth Heike Mathis nearly lost her life the way I did December 2014 and my best friends neigh family members my firfamily and she could not pick up the phone and call me just tell me she lives still!
Last December I learned my favorite aunt had died in July.I had no note Clarian was ill or that mom was finally allowed to come home.Who is it that family members who know they did other family members wrong have to have permission to again be sister you love and miss with your whole heart.
Lying not being honest with the whole heart is like an act of violance on family members that care. Hate is like that it distorts.
No one has the permission to fuck with my family its sad that as we go through like we are constantly giving strangers the right to believe they can tell us when to enjoy simply things like sex ; but some of us are not strong enough to stand up and protect our mom against the abuse of a narcississ lies.
Ellens words will always echo in my ears ‘I know Val you are innocent of Elder abuse but I will not do anything about it!’ Some will believe her home caught on fire was karma then Ellen should have died the way I died at the hands of family not Boomer. Where my families justice from Diana Lee Heike Dudley?
Love must always have passion. Its pure love I miss my mom and my kid sister. Of it was possible to remove the monster in my family I would before the monster could even mouth my name.
Where are the knights in shinning armor are they ALL dead?